So last night Kalyn and I were laying in bed, about to zonk out, when she said something to this effect, "BJ, people have said they're sorry." That is not the beginning of a conversation I want to have at midnight, but I'm glad she had the courage to say something after reading yesterday's post. As I said yesterday, I find myself a mix of thoughts and emotions as I try to come to terms with the last three years and what this next year may be like. I wasn't thinking very clearly yesterday, and I let my hurt skew my memory of the past. Kalyn gave me one good example of when a person who had hurt me deeply came into my office and genuinely said, "I was wrong. I'm sorry," ...the very thing I said no one had said.
So now I get to take my own advice. Yesterday's post wasn't fair. It wasn't accurate. I was speaking out of pain, and seldom are we able to see clearly when we do that. It was not right for me to paint things in negative colors only. I am sorry.
Also, thank you, Kalyn, for being willing to say the hard things I don't want to hear when I need to hear them. I love you.